Spitball Army

My own idea is that when He comes again it will be to continue his ministry as an old man.  I am an old man and my life has been spent as a soldier of Christ, and I tell you that the older I grow the less Christ’s teaching says to me.  I am sometimes very conscious that I am following the path of a leader who died when He was less than half as old as I am now.  I see and feel things He never saw or felt.  I know things He seems never to have known.  Everybody wants a Christ for himself and those who think like him.  Very well, am I at fault for wanting a Christ who will show me how to be an old man?  All Christ’s teaching is put forward with the dogmatism, the certainty, and the strength of youth: I need something that takes account of the accretion of experience, the sense of paradox and ambiguity that comes with years!  I think after forty we should recognize Christ politely but turn for our comfort and guidance to God the Father, who knows the good and evil of life, and to the Holy Ghost, who possesses a wisdom beyond that of the incarnated Christ.  After all, we worship a Trinity, of which Christ is but one Person.  I think when He comes again it will be to declare the unity of the life of the flesh and the life of the spirit.  And then perhaps we shall make some sense of this life of marvels, cruel circumstances, obscenities, and commonplaces.  Who can tell? – we might even make it bearable for everybody.

– Spoken by the character Padre Blazon, an elderly scholar of saints, in Robertson Davies‘ Fifth Business